Isn’t it interesting how you can resist what you want? You desire, ask for, prayer, imagine, long for, even visualize. But then when it starts to show up, you don’t trust it ~ or even worse, you don’t even see it because you’re too full of not having it.
The more conscious one becomes, the more aware of this you are. When you learn about the law of attraction, often you start to focus more and more on what you want, instead of on what you don’t want. This can be really exciting ~ and it can create real results if you allow yourself to actually open up to receiving what you want.
But what about all the fear we have about what we want?! I’ve found in my own work and in working with clients, that we often have tremendous resistance to receiving what we want. Our deeper beliefs, which are often unconscious, tell us that it’s not safe, we can’t have it, something terrible will happen if we open up, let go of control, let anyone know what we’re really thinking, wanting, believing–all kinds of stuff that “doesn’t make sense” yet nevertheless runs around inside our mental processes, many times without us even knowing. Jeez.
Fear and doubt are the two biggest internal obstacles. Sometimes they are so ingrained that you don’t even realize that they are there. They appear as aspects of reality–this is how things are, this is the smart way to understand the world, this is my experience, and so on.
With patience, intention, and support, it really is possible to receive and align with what you want, with who you are. I was working with a client a few days ago, who came wanting more clarity and certainty about a direction into which he was heading. He described an experience in meditation that was very powerful for him, and he wanted more of that, wanted to open to and to trust his inner guidance. He was also aware of his tendencies to want to control things through planning, analyzing, figuring things out with his mind.
Through our soul healing work together–which included Clarity Breathwork and channeling–he connected with an energy he was familiar with, a deep knowledge within himself from many lifetimes, a seed of his soul purpose in this life. The energy was extremely powerful–I had to step back and disengage from it once I helped open the channel, it was so strong. Here it was–what he’d been longing for, asking for. And his personality resisted it. He felt fear, uncertainty, awe–that part of him that wants to be in control struggled against this opening, knowing this was far bigger than it is. Through our patient loving attention the energy emerged and began to integrate.
I received and shared with him the message that there was no need to fear–the energy would integrate at a rate he would be able to modulate according to what he was comfortable with. This new aspect of Self would not overwhelm him; rather a dynamic relationship was being forged in which the “me” of everyday life, and the soul self me would interact, integrate, create something new together. As he opened to this understanding his system relaxed, his whole body opened and his face lit up. He felt validated in a way he’d never experienced before.
I know that from that day his life will be different. Not that he will never resist again–but now he has a felt-experience, a body-wisdom knowing, about who he is and what he wants that is his forever. It’s not conceptual, it’s not mental, it’s in his cells. I am honored to be a witness to that. And so it is.
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